I haven’t told this to anyone before
but I have a life’s theme song and recently I realized that it has changed, now it's 'everyday' by Jeremy Zucker. The previous one still represents some of my views and opinions but it does not really
speak to me on some level anymore.
Isn't it awesome to have your own life theme song when you have a theme song for your love life?
My previous life’s theme song
was Land Called Far Away by Colbie Caillat from her album Gypsy Heart and sometimes along the way it changed.
If you know Land Called Far Away then you know that it is about being free of
commitment and not being ready to be involved in any romantic relationship
(dude, I’m still not haha) unlike other girls my age.
I'm not hating, it's just my preference. I want to be independent and free so let me be.
For me, it’s not about hating
other girls who pursue any kind of relationship. It’s actually me knowing I have more
things in my mind, more goals to achieve, and more decisions to make. It's that
simple.
I was in college when I
labeled it as my life’s theme song. I have so much on my plate at that time and
it was like an affirmation saying I’m normal and doing the right thing. Society tells me otherwise and hearing the song gives me an ally. And also,
I’ve never been the princess type so there’s that as well.
Recently I realized that a new song
now represents my life’s standpoint more accurate than Land Called Far Away and
it’s everyday by Jeremy Zucker from his stripped EP.
As I age, I gather that life
can be a bitch and by being so I eventually became less hopeful and idealistic.
I felt defeated in general. I’ve reached a certain point in life where people
think I should be proud of but I ended up feeding the hole inside me.
I was living, I earn money to
pay bills, to buy what I want, but I was still a hot mess.
And then everyday gave me
hope.
It answers my unspoken
questions and gave me questions about my unspoken answers.
‘If love is the answer, what
is the question?’ that line is one of the most highlighted lines from the song.
And I agree, what’s the question? I’ve seen memes saying if you don’t know the
answer to a question, just put love because love can never go wrong. But
what’s the question?
The song lulls me and somehow
affirms where I am right now. It gives me hope and tells me that everything is
fine.
It opens my eyes; that despite
being flawed there are things that I deserve and I am worthy.
You'll see better days. Life’s a choice we make.
The song is a reminder that this slump is temporary no
matter how permanent it feels like. It gives me hope that eventually, I can alter this life that I have right now. It's a reminder that I can do
more if I wanted to because I always have a say in my life.
It tells me that I am not
lost. That despite my struggles in finding my way and failing at finding where
I am supposed to be- the truth is I’m not really lost.
It tells me not to fell
dejected when the things in front of me are not the things that I am hoping
for. I just need to carry on, keep my head up, and continue moving because I
will definitely be where I am supposed to be.
I’ll see brighter days.
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