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Dear Vita, I'm always waiting for that shoe to drop



“There’s always a shoe that will drop”  That’s what my subconscious mind always keep on saying.


Maybe I’m being skeptical but you can’t blame me for I’ve been through a lot lately. Recent events made me more skeptical about everything that there is. People, opportunities, career, and other stuff gave me doubts which I cannot comprehend.

 

It was hard.

 

I was waiting for that drop thinking maybe if that happens then I can eventually move on and wouldn’t have to worry anymore since there are no more shoes that will fall. I was stalling my progress in fear and in hope to move on altogether.

 

I was hoping to experience all of it all at once so I can move on and progress once and for all.

 

I was so blinded by the question ‘Why prolong the agony?’ and I was waiting for all of it to happen all at once that I forgot I was the one prolonging the agony, the hurt, and the suffering.

 

It’s like going to a dentist, you want all necessary stuff done with a single visit, and in the journey you stall your checkup just because there’s little to do. You stall not knowing that in that process you are just letting cavities eat your healthy bones. But that wouldn’t matter when you get satisfied being able to do it all at once, more damage done but at least the pain you’ll feel is all the once.

 

I had that logic. I was patiently waiting and I forgot to acknowledge that maybe that’s all that I have to face in the meantime. Maybe the shoe wasn’t supposed to fall right now. Maybe the damage should not be that big.

 

As I progress I realized one thing, and that is you are faced with your biggest problem until you aren’t anymore because another problem will come and then it’s now your biggest worry, it’s only big until the bigger problem comes your way. So technically maybe the shoe will never fall.

 

It’s like waves. It will never stop, you just have to endure one wave at a time, stronger than others at times, but will always be there.

 

I was waiting for that giant wave thinking that after it hit me then maybe I can sail safely and freely.

 

I guess, I was wrong.

 

Writing this down and realizing how stupid my mind went on makes me want to hide under a rock like Patrick.

 

Well, to be fair I was just being scared and that’s very normal. Thank you very much. But I should have known better.

 

I was standing on the shore toughening myself out waves after waves but it was no use.

 

I have to move. I have to remind myself that there are no shoes holding me down.

 

It’s hard breaking out from a cycle of fear when fear is evident. It’s hard fighting of fear, doubt, and insecurity when you don’t have the strength enough to get out of that wormhole.

 

It’s a process.

 

It’s a learning experience, one that you should accept and acknowledge because there’s no other way out but forward.

 

The waves will be stronger but so are you.

 

Listen to Dory and just keep on swimming.

let's talk about health and accidents
Let’s face it, there’s a lot of surfacing issues with regards to health and accidents and we have no control over our lives.

We don’t know when a disease or accident might hit us.

We are not certain about anything else in this world, and what’s alarming is the saying ‘Filipinos are one hospitalization away from debt and poverty’.

It’s true tho, we are one accident away from being buried in debt because of many factors. Low income, no savings, no health care insurance, and sometimes leniency.

In this post I’m going to tell you how to avoid accidents may it be in terms of finance or health. Here are some tips or ways to help yourself be prepared for future diseases and accidents.

SETUP AN EMERGENCY FUND

This is a no-bargain tip. You have to have an emergency fund not just for accidents but also for other types of calamities that you will face, take for example the COVID-19 pandemic where we were forced to have a house quarantine. A lot of Filipinos got paralyzed because most of us live in a daily-basis income.

Ideally, an Emergency Fund is an amount of money equal to a 3-6 month's salary to sustain your need in case you can’t work for a few weeks or months.

But for the record, setting up an Emergency Fund is not easy and you have to acknowledge that.

When you decide to set an emergency fund you have to recognize other factors. Start it on your next payout, save 10% of your salary, or even less if you really need it for other stuff. 

Payout after payout you’ll see that your savings have grown and the next thing you have to do is to remind yourself is that it’s not for leisure purposes.

You have to establish events and specific emergencies for which you can use the funds. Those specific should be written down, and emergencies like hospitalizations, medications, and calamities are valid.

What is not valid is fashion emergencies, sales emergencies, and other stuff. You have to go to a formal event but don’t have anything to wear? That’s not an emergency. Learn to prioritize.

GET AN INSURANCE

Not everyone has an insurance and that is just very unfortunate. Recently someone from the family was admitted to a hospital and our hospital bill went up to Php30,000 for a 4-day stay (medicines not included).

Thankfully, my mother is working in government and she has an insurance which reduced our bill to Php15,000~.

Most Filipinos still see that as a huge amount of money but we’re just still so thankful that our bill was almost cut in half.

I cannot stress enough how important insurance is for everyone.

There are a lot of insurance companies out there and you have to be very careful in choosing the type of insurance that you will avail.

Always go for a company with a lot of types of insurance to choose from to fit your needs.

You might not know it yet but there’s a lot of different kinds of personal accident insurance that you can choose from.

If you can avail of insurance already you may want to check this out.

VISIT YOUR DOCTOR REGULARLY

I am a firm believer of the saying ‘prevention is better than cure’ and to be honest there’s nothing wrong if you‘ll live by that principle.

I think the common misconception of every Filipinos is that regular checkup is a waste of money.

I know not everyone can afford a physician visit on a regular basis but it is necessary. As mentioned above, you can get a small amount from your Emergency Fund if you really don’t have spare savings solely for checkups.

Personally, I consider health and other related health issues as ‘emergency fund eligible’ because health should always be prioritized.

Earlier I shared with you that a family member was hospitalized recently and, to be honest it could have been avoided if we were successfully encouraged and made her visit her doctor.

Imagine, we paid Php 15,000 when the physician fee for a checkup only costs around Php 300-500 and maybe around Php 2,000 for lab tests.

My point is checkups are not a waste of money, they are prevention.


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Grey's Anatomy Season 13 Finale


This post was written in December 2019

Throughout the years, Grey's Anatomy has been the haven that gives me hope and wisdom while getting me entertained. And among the hundreds of episodes that it currently has, Grey's Anatomy Season 13 Finale hit me hardest.

I’m a Grey’s Anatomy fan but for the past two years, I haven’t been able to watch the last two seasons. Yes, I know some people will say ‘is that what you called being a fan?’ among other things but I guess you can say anything as much as you want since I wouldn’t really argue about that.

Now that 2019 is ending I decided to watch Season 13’s finale again, I thought it wouldn’t affect me that much since I already watched it and I already cried buckets but I was wrong, it still hits me.

It still hurts.

The thing is, the first time I watch it feels like an ending season. A dead-end road. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that we were about to finish college at that time.

In that episode, Edwards, one of my favorite characters that I’m very fond of, decided to quit, Meredith let Nathan go so that he can be with Megan, and then they introduced Maggie and Jackson’s relationship which means an end for Jackson and April’s.

It has a lot of ending, and it was my ending season.

Looking back now, I think the reason why I wasn’t able to watch past Season 14 episode 15 is that I was stuck. A line which resonates with me is the following dialogue between Edwards and a patient named Erin.

“So we’re stuck?”- Erin

“No. No, we’re not stuck. We are... We’re gonna sit right here and put this (blanket) over our heads, and we’re gonna be just fine, I promise you. Come on.” –Stephanie Edwards

“No. That’s pulling the covers over your head. My mom said when things get scary, you don’t do that. You turn on the light so the scary goes away.”- Erin

“But I am a doctor and I know that in this case this blanket is our best chance, okay?- Stephanie Edwards

After I graduated from college, I decided to put the blanket over my head to protect me. Despite the fact and knowledge that I’ll get suffocated eventually, I did it because it got scary. Life is scary but it got even scarier, so putting the blanket on was the only thing for me to do.

But after watching it the second time, this time right here, a new perspective came into view.

I realized that there might have been a lot of ending and a lot of letting go but it was not a losing battle.

Meredith let Nathan go because it was the right thing to do and it did not invalidate the memories they shared. Stephanie did not just throw away her profession, she didn’t quit, she looks after herself and that is something not a lot of us can do. Only brave people can walk away from their comfort zones to look after themselves and see other things that life can offer.

It finally dawned on me.

Finally, after two years I realized that it’s the start of something. The burning of the fire of passion. A start perhaps. I was wrong two years ago, it was not an ending season. It was a beginning to a lot of things, and I got scared.

Actually, for me, it’s not entirely a ‘start’ for I’ve been on this journey too long and I don’t want to disregard the things I did and experienced in the past, may it be pain or happiness, and it’s not a do-over also.

It's now clear to me.

I was able to see that despite the scary Edwards decided to face it and came out alive. She went head-on to the raging fire to got her key card, all burnt and damaged but alive, and she saved that girl.

She's brave.

I want to be like Edwards. I want to get out and be saved, it doesn’t matter if I’m damaged or burnt as long as I make it alive and past life’s challenges, it’s okay.

Watching Dr. Bailey scolded Dr. Minnick about protocols and saying they were taught right by Dr. Webber feels good. It feels like I am part of the original interns and that I was once taught by Dr. Webber.

Seeing all the doctors' sacrifices made me re-think all the things I did. I started questioning.

Do I do things according to protocols like a human-robot or can I still see past through protocols and do it because I know how to feel?

‘She is clinging to these procedures and protocols and cannot see when to let go in order to save the life of a patient, a child!’- Chief Bailey.

Maybe there were times where I was clinging on to protocols because I thought it was going to save me, to make things easy, and get things done. Maybe the only thing that can save the child in all of us is knowing when to let go of those protocols. We have to let go of the voice that speaks inside our head and just feel it.



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